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Our Heart's Desire

8/4/2015

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I recently went on my annual week-long retreat, a time of quiet, reflection, and prayer. The type of retreat was a directed retreat, in which the only time you talk is during a 30-minute period, one on one with a spiritual director. With the director, you share what happens during your prayer and are offered some guidance on what scripture to pray with during the next twenty-four-hour period. I look forward to retreat with great eagerness and with a thirst for solitude, much like a runner thirsts for water upon completing a marathon.

The funny thing is that despite the anticipation, it often happens that the first days are a struggle to reach interior quiet. The not-talking is the easy part. Quieting my mind and spirit is something else entirely. So often, I get edgy and restless and annoyed that I can’t get into a prayerful frame of reference in my time frame. That’s the thing. There are two kinds of time: chronos, or the time that exists as subdivisions of our days, weeks, months, and years and Kairos, God’s time, the time in which the Spirit of God is at work in us. More often than not, the two times do not match up. On retreat, I see the days passing swiftly and effectively say to God: “You better hurry up. Time is ticking away and if something is going to happen, it better happen soon or retreat will be over.” In my best moments, I know that God can do what God wants to accomplish in me whenever God wants. “It,” whatever “it” is, can happen in an instant. So what’s there to worry about? In truth, nothing. But to get to that place of trusting the power of God working in me, doing more than I could ever ask or imagine (Ephesians 3:20), I not only have to be externally quiet, I have to empty myself of my agenda, be still, and wait upon God. In God’s time, when I am open to God’s desires for me, God touches my heart. It may be that involves my letting go of pressuring myself, acting or thinking as if I am the one that does the transforming, or recognizing that God simply wants me to be in his presence, or to recognize that I am loved, as imperfect as I am.

The desires that we have for a deeper, richer, more trusting relationship with God are rooted in God’s desires for us. After all, Jesus tells us in John’s Gospel: “I have come that you may have life and have it to the full.” The fullness of which Jesus speaks, that I seek in my retreat and that many of us desire (though we may not name it) has nothing to do with money, possessions, status, power, or prestige. Rather, it is all about a deepening, intimate relationship with God, one that is nurtured by spending time alone with God, in quiet, in prayer, in love with the one who can make it happen.

~Sr. Kathleen

Take your next step: Each day, find a quiet corner in your home or your garden. Spend ten minutes with God alone and ask God to draw you into a deeper relationship with him.
4 Comments
Marie link
8/5/2015 11:16:04 am

Great reminder for me. Thank you. And welcome back!

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joan Martin
8/5/2015 01:57:21 pm

Thanks, Sr. Kathleen. I appreciate your sharing of your retreat experience. God works in strange ways.
- Joan

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nancy
8/5/2015 04:01:18 pm

Sr. Kathleen, thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings so honestly.

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George
8/6/2015 07:29:33 am

Sr K, There is a quote attributable to Jesus that I like.
" I am so looking forward to spending this time with you." Jesus

Thank you for your witness to your time with Jesus.

George

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